Been sitting here for a couple of days with a feeling I wanted to write about something but couldn't put my finger on it. Well it just hit me. This might be too much of a bummer for some to read, so be careful. I beli…

I cannot write a poem today Cause I ain't got naught to say Not a clever thought Nor word to jot No rhyme to paper lay. My monkey needs a spankin' I only have one thought To pacify this jungle beast And…

The death or suppose death of CorvyusMorte really reinforced what i mentioned in my blog,"She's Not Real...Just Dots," in regards to how our minds can produce feelings in us that aren't based on anything real. I had m…

Just looked at The Theologians Cafe blog about losing friends on Xanga. I wondered myself how real internet relationships or friendships really are. I had a big problem with internet communication and satellite comm…

There are two reasons why I want to stay alive. One is to keep helping my girlfriend in the Philippines and the other is I want to see what happens on December 21, 2012. She wants to come here but we can't get the m…

Something in me has changed in the last few years and, as much as hate to admit it, getting a computer had something to do with it. During my lifelong spiritual journey, I began wondering where God's spirit was, how…

...and he, propelling his boat, said to himself, "Yes I am contented, I have found a measure of freedom through trial and error, but there is not an honest soul in sight. My heart is broken that we have all learned to li…

I was bitten then I slipped away to an empty realm But my body pulled me back inside As hunger overwhelmed My nerves scream with electric fire My heart is dead and cold Consumed with…

I had forgotten about these but I had one today. I don't have a name for it but I know they have something to do with the time track. First I'll give a description, then some background. My dreams reappear to me, wh…

I'll probably have to go back to work next week and the time I can spend blogging will be greatly reduced. I love to write so I'm gonna do just that. I've decided to quit worrying about how many people read this stu…

I was driving home one night from work on a dark country road, going faster than usual, around 65 mph. I was in a foul mood and just wanted to get the hell home. The road has an old seldom used railroad track that cro…

I mentioned that I might tell of my otherworldly experiences and I have decided to tell the full story of the cold room that I touched on previously. My girlfriend and I were caught up in a Penecostal Christian cult…

All that writing for nothing. I was watching my downloaded videos and I found Night On Bald Mountain from Walt Disney's original Fantasia. THAT'S the one that did it. I saw it when I was very young. When I saw Chernab…

I wanted to throw this out for unknown reasons. I watch Charmed every night before I go to bed. I discovered it in 2005, a year before the series ended. I bought the dvd series and began watching it through from the begi…

Sitting here cross legged on my bed as I do with computer in front of me reading about the HAARP depopulation activities, the chemtrail depopulation activities, reading blogs on Xanga and people's responses, watching Dr.…

It just dawned on me how odd it was that when I got my first computer two years ago there were no instructions that came with it, except how to plug it in and what the different holes were for. How odd. Everything els…

Even though I don't feel about God the way I used to, I still use the same reference points that I've been using for the last thirty-five years or so. I see existance in levels or planes of consciousness, from less l…

I liked what I read about the way Steve jobs conducted his life - keeping himself focused on his goals and not allowing anyone or anything to distract him or knock him off course, which made him seem mean or brutal at ti…

Every day I read more wonderful, sensitive and amazing things here on this Xanga. People encouraging each other. Perhaps I've found a place I can let myself out and be recieved by at least some people who "get it"... heh…

Odd combination. I love music and became infatuated with the Kpop girl groups a while ago. They use American pop chord progressions in their music, especially '50's styles and R&B flavored stuff which makes it fun to…

Going to the gym, playing my guitar and putting more videos on YouTube. I just answered this Featured Question; you can answer it too!